Do I really have internal monologue?
(Reality TV about inner experience)


Part X: Mel May: Comparing an outsider's DES to the originator's DES

In this extraordinary set of interviews, we have the opportunity to compare DES-as-read-about-and-implemented-by-an-outsider (Julian Bass-Krueger) to DES-as-written-and-practiced-by-its-creator (Russ). We enlisted Mel May, who had volunteered to be a DES participant....

Julian Bass-Krueger and Russ have never met. Julian had become interested in DES in about 2017 and several times over the years had contacted Russ, who had given him some suggestions. Julian became a Master’s student in cognitive science at the University of Vienna, completing a thesis using DES as he had learned it from Russ’s books, articles, and web materials. The thesis also included an extension of DES that Julian called dDES (dynamic DES). Julian sent his thesis to Russ, who responded critically--Russ was skeptical of Julian's results and doubted that dDES could be successful.

In 2023, Julian contacted Russ inquiring about supervision, and Russ suggested the possibility of conducting joint interviews of a DES participant and then candidly discussing any issues that might arise. That might provide the opportunity to compare DES-as-read-about-and-implemented-by-an-outsider (Julian) to DES-as-written-and-practiced-by-its-creator (Russ) which might be a win-win: Julian might learn something about DES, and Russ might learn something about what he should do to make his DES materials more effective.

At about the same time, Mel May, a video producer, contacted Russ saying she loved the videos in the 'Do I have inner monologue?' series and would like to produce some sort of media piece that would be much shorter than the 80 or so hours that are on the site.

Russ suggested to Julian that we might enlist Mel as a DES participant; and Russ suggested to Mel that she might wish to experience DES from the inside. Each thought that was a good idea, and this series of interviews was born.

The interviews were conducted by Russ Hurlburt and Julian Bass-Krueger. Their back-and-forth commentary provides significant insight into how to investigate inner experience--like a series of DES masterclasses.

Date

Interview

Description

September 26

Interview -1 (first meeting)
Video
Transcript with commentary

This is the initial meeting between the three participants. Russ had sketched out the possibilities to Julian and to Mel separately, but no specifics had, as yet, been agreed to....

The conversation was not scripted, and so wandered around the topics of interest. Here, for reference, is a rough outline of topics covered:

  • [0:40]: About recording
  • [2:09]: About Julian
  • [4:27]: About Mel
  • [8:52]: Russ's plan
  • [15:27]: Mel’s plan
  • [19:36]: Procedure
  • [24:25]: The contract
  • [26:05]: About the beeper
  • [33:24]: More about the contract

October 5

Interview 0 (DES introduction)
Video
Transcript with commentary

The beeper has arrived, and they discuss how to use it....

The instructions are not scripted. Here is a rough outline of topics covered:

  • [0:07]: Beeper operation
  • [12:19]: Beeper history
  • [17:21]: DES sampling instructions
  • [24:07]: Conversation about DES

October 10

Interview 1
Video
Transcript with commentary

This is Mel's first sampling day. We discussed four of the six samples she collected. ...

In general—sampling day 1: All DES interviews are some combination of iterative training (so that future sampling days can be more skillful) and description of experience. The aim of the first sampling interview (or the first several sampling interviews) is almost entirely iterative training. First-day sampling interviews appear to be inquiries into experience, but their fundamental aim is to facilitate discussions of how to do DES more skillfully. DES recognizes that participants on their first sampling day are not skillful, so DES routinely discards first-day descriptions.

Mel's samples:

  • Sample 1.1 [2:48]: [Mel was in the process of doing kitchen tasks. She had watered the plants and] at the moment of the beep was about to grab kitchen spray and wipe the kitchen. (She may or may not have directly experienced this about-to process.)
  • Sample 1.2 [20:50]: Mel was vacuuming. Nothing about the physical act of vacuuming (sound, sight, kinesthetics, etc.) was particularly experientially present . (There may have been a relaxed contentedness about it, but this may have just been Mel describing her mood or context during the overall period.)
  • Sample 1.3 [34:34]: [Mel was on the couch drinking tea.] This act wasn’t so present in her experience. (There may or may not have been a contentment aspect—a light relaxedness. But this may have been Mel’s way of characterizing the absence of negative feelings, or her impression of her general mood at the time.)
  • Sample 1.4 [45:20]: [Mel was reading a book about creativity.] At the moment of the beep, she was rereading / absorbing the meaning of a passage / or was not experiencing anything. [This may have been more her way of describing her general reading process than a description of experience at this moment.] (Mel wasn’t particularly focused on any one word, or the meaning of the text in particular. The experience was probably more automatic. This was similar to the automaticity of her vacuuming or cleaning experience, though the 'absorbing' component of reading may lend the reading a different quality.)
  • Conversation after sample discussions [1:04:20]: Don't tell participants what to do; words don't matter; discriminating between experience and all else.
  • Commentary arising after the interview [in the transcript but not on video]: On 'Mel described herself'.

More interviews coming...

For more information:
Russell T. Hurlburt, Ph.D.
Descriptive Experience Sampling online materials

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